I actually write because I have issues
it's like medicine for me, only without the drowsiness or the dangerous side effects besides somone getting their feelings hurt
that minor issue is easy to overlook because where it really matters most is I need to get these things off my chest
yeah I could very well stand in front of a crowd, holding a mic with a sweaty palm, and recite my concealed emotions to a mislead audience
but the conflict of interest is simply this: I don't write to recite
my words aren't necessarily seeking a publishing contract
nor do I fantasize about a book signing engagement at one of the probably last bookstores in existence
maybe call it a diary, or something equivalent to an individual needing a drink and kush to overcome a stressful day
but it doesn't make the issue go away
I can be free from it for a little while to allow the rest of my senses to come to terms with my reality
the reality being I have issues I'm either not ready to share..........
or simply can't because I'm too complex to understand even for myself